Man is it May 18th already!!

Sorry folks, don't mean to forget about you. But all these meetings are driving me insane. I am also addicted to Farm Town and that takes all my time, just kidding??!! Anyways on to the important stuff, hearing is going well. I am doing better and better, pushing and pushing but its still too slow. I start speech with one of my speech friends tomorrow so we will see how that goes. Hopefully she can outwit me and make me work, after work!! I am hearing all the things I think I want to hear, environmental sounds are definitely easier for me, its the speech piece that keeps throwing me for a loop. Lisa, put it across to me in a way that I understood but it comes back to that patience thing and I don't have that trait real well. She theorizes that I hear more than I let myself believe!! Meaning is my brain tells me that I need the visual, not like I haven't used it for 39 years or something, so trying to tell my brain that it is ok for me to understand without the LIPS!!! Well, she doesn't think so and wants me to see the LIPS in order to understand all things. So, I am trying to work out a way to work on that but i am not sure what all to do. So, if you have a suggestion, let me know. I go see Allison on the 29th so that will give me more information as well. Still not using my hearing aid though. Well, talk with you all sooner or later.

Program 3, didn't I already do program 3 ?!?

Well Well Well, Program 3, didn't I already do program 3. Oh I did but it was different than this one. Man is it oud but yet good. If that makes any sense. Fans of all kinds are driving me nuts, projector fans, AC fans, house fans, they are just noisy. Oh, by the way Lisa, if the clock in the office ends up missing, don' t ask me where it is ok? Tick tick tick tick, uugghh!!! I am beginnin to notice that I don't hear highs as well as before, now are the lows over powering the highs? I can't seem to get it right. I hear them but not as clear, I can't seem to make up my mind on which I want I guess, I think I want both but will that overpower ME!!! All I know is that I need my family and freinds to start talking without facin gme so that I can force myself to listen, yea here comes auditory training--uuughh!!! But I know that I need it to keep progressing forwards. I can pick out songs on the radio now so that is good, like Hotel California by Eagles and Forever and Ever, Amen by Randy Travis. I will be going back down for the full battery of testing, sentences, beeps, and whatever else Allison will torture me with. This will be the big day as to see how well I have improved with my implant compared to hearing aids. I am still not wearing my hearing aid either. I am kindof afraid to put it back in, will it change all the work that I have done? In other words will my brain prefer that over my implant? Will it help my hearing be even better have both sides working, I could localize better thats for sure. My hearing aid seems to be an issue for me so I wonder do I need counseling ; ). Whatever!!! And to think 3 months ago, my hearing aids were my LIFE!! I went everywhere with them whether my ears hurt or not because of the molds. So, that has been a definite change for me. Althogh putting my hearing aid would help with the phone since that is the ear I listen with. Well, I will keep pondering my questions and see if I come up with any answers, if I do I will come back and let you know.